Not just fat. Truly fat. In the scary oh my god, am I ever going to lose this weight fat.

As I type, I am researching on how to lose weight the healthy way.

I need the willpower to get me back to my body from five years ago. Because five years ago, I was fit. Healthy. Could even carry off a bikini.

Now? Pfft. I’ve been carrying around a rather unsightly pouch – heck, to be perfectly honest, it’s more like a full blown piece of luggage attached to my midsection. And I’ve been fooling myself, because my husband still finds me hot (thank goodness for that, at least).

But it’s time to take action.

So, here I go universe. No more sugary drinks – back to plain water for me. Must take time to exercise. More veggies and fruits.

As I celebrate my birthday tomorrow, let it be the start of a new me.

I knew that he was at least a little disappointed, because I know he wants to contribute more financially, but I reassured him that it was ok and he could just keep doing his freelance gig, which is a job that he loves.

And now, I’m so happy that he’s getting a contract full time job in the exact line of work he’s freelancing in. It’s the perfect job for him, it’s in a good location, and the money is so much better.

I really do believe that things happen for a reason. Like I told hubby, God will answer our prayers and do the right thing – at the right time.

I can just cross my fingers that our application is good enough.

I guess maybe because at this point, no one likes her at all anyway.

It feels like the weekend literally just flew by.  Hours plonked down on the couch watching tv, finishing Season Four of Grey’s Anatomy (yes, I’m awfully late), surfing the Net – and getting annoyed yet again at my webhost (for my mom’s company, that is) – hmm.. making lumpiang shanghai, polishing off a couple of slices of pizza.

Yeah, that was pretty much my weekend. And with a little bit of work on the side thrown in of course, because that’s just how my work is. It invades personal time unabashedly, unashamedly.

I seriously want to take a holiday. The question is, how can I fit in everything I need and want to do with the amount of leave days that I have?

*sigh* That’s the downside of being away from home. No matter how good you have it here, home will always offer more. Not just food, mind you, but the comfort that being in your home turf can bring. The familiarity of everything you know just gives you confidence. And I think you’ll only fully realize it once you’re away.

I think it’s part of human nature to want to go away, start anew, try a new life. But being home – nothing can beat that.

On the upside, I like doing morning news because 1) duty finishes at 10 am (whoopee!) and 2) it pays an extra $14.50 a day. And when money’s tight, any extra income is good.

Speaking of money, I’ve been tasked to collect money so we can buy toto tickets for the hongbao draw. Hongbao draw = $10 million pot. Hope we get lucky! And this *lucky* assignment was given to me because during a mahjong game with my friends/colleagues, I had beginner’s luck. Heh. Hope that holds for toto as well!

Meanwhile, I’m so glad for this weekend. It’s time to veg out and pop in the season finale DVD of Grey’s Anatomy (sad, I’m only on season four).

I need a break.

I just attended a workshop here at work, and one of the activities (to test how we can write short sharp stories) was to explain, in forty words or less in a language that even a child can understand, how to tie a shoelace.

Just to explain: I don’t know how to *properly* tie a shoelace. I just tie it any which way, and it always ends up being untied soon after. When I was in high school and I was wearing shoes with laces, my best friend would tie my shoelaces for me, and now that I’m married, my husband would do it.

Otherwise, I try to find sneakers with Velcro straps.

And yet, apparently, after this exercise, i could explain how to do it the best. *snickers*

Maybe it’s like what they say..those who can’t do, teach.

On the one hand, this is a special day and I’d like to splurge. On the other hand, since money is a bit tight, I’d still like to rein in the expenses.

So I’m trying to find something to do that will be both special and won’t break the bank. Got a few more days to think!